Tearjerkynes

I had a dream last night. I'm disturbed by it all morning. Then I realized something. I was able to hug you in  my dream, which I can never do in reality. Now I dont know what to feel.

And a doubt tinged with hope. I have the same cellphone number for 5 years now. Because of you. Whenever I think about changing my cellphone number, you would come across my mind, and I would decide not to change it. I have this idea in my mind that, yes we were apart, but if I never change my number, if I keep it, you would eventually contact me, that you will find your way back to the friendship we once had. It's pathetic, I know. The few people who might read this would find this annoying. Thinking that I should just contact that person. But I'm afraid. I'm afraid that you would just ignore me, as if I'm not existing. I'm afraid to know

And a doubt tinged with hope. I have the same cellphone number for 5 years now. Because of you. Whenever I think about changing my cellphone number, you would come across my mind, and I would decide not to change it. I have this idea in my mind that, yes we were apart, but if I never change my number, if I keep it, you would eventually contact me, that you will find your way back to the friendship we once had. It's pathetic, I know. The few people who might read this would find this annoying. Thinking that I should just contact that person. But I'm afraid. I'm afraid that you would just ignore me, as if I'm not existing. I'm afraid to know